syan jay is a writer of Dził Łigai Si'an N'dee descent. They were the winner of the 2018 Pacific Spirit Poetry Prize and were Frontier Poetry's 2019 Frontier New Voices Fellow. Their work is published/forthcoming in The Shallow Ends, PRISM International, and Black Warrior Review. They currently live with their partner in the occupied Massachusett homelands of Nutohkemminnit (Greater Boston, Massachusetts). Their debut poetry collection, Bury Me in Thunder (January 29, 2020) is out now with Sundress Publications.
syan jay
Shelter for a Wayward Polycephaly
Spinal cords of ruptured peonies
build archways towards north,
towards blue walls of stagnated
inhales. This is not the roof of my home,
this is not mine, but
I unequivocally possess it.
When lightning split the
cherry tea, everything
became a tombstone of light,
of burnt fruit and
cracked loaves of bread.
Did you know how to woo
in the storms? Language forsake your
body like a helpless vessel,
yet, the garden outside
wavered in something of its undeadness,
rain tearing flesh from bark and bone,
until dome nests from the meadowlarks
lay on the porch like offerings, like
payment, except you never
cared about collections.
An unforgiving pink dawn
stripped our bodies down, raw
like venison, sliced open as fish
bellies, with new children sliding
onto the table, little suns against
a hardwood sky—
our fingers numbly tried to scoop
up the orphans, pressing them through
each other’s teeth. We wanted to eat
phosphorous babies, we wanted
our tongues to become fire
and unviewable, able to
burn holes into the cornea
of any man who might try and
look upon us, upon our pressed-against
mouths. Even if we tried to make a
home, all the willow trees have
weak branches that our thighs
can no longer hang from like they
used to, we have become too heavy,
and aimless as we watched our
fingers disappear into each
other, the tattoo of a
rattler on your wrist
rhythmically swaying, as
the wind outside bent the curtains
inwards, twisting as upset organs,
knowing our fathers never wanted us
in this place, in any place at all.
Glass: A Journal of Poetry is published monthly by Glass Poetry Press.
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