Andrea Blythe bides her time waiting for the apocalypse by writing speculative poetry and fiction. She is the author of Your Molten Heart / A Seed to Hatch (2018) a collection of erasure poems, and coauthor of Every Girl Becomes the Wolf (Finishing Line Press, 2018), a collaborative chapbook written with Laura Madeline Wiseman. She is c-ohost of the New Books in Poetry podcast, serves as an associate editor for Zoetic Press, and is a member of the Science Fiction and Fantasy Poetry Association.
The jackal leaned close
and winked, my skin
shrieking. We both
maintained
a convenient fiction.
He knew
I was an idea,
subject of his thought
— just an overload
in the switchboard.
I was the definition
of a face, never
actually
the face.
Can you throttle
laughter? Can you
go beyond
hands or arms?
The jackal had
a bullet
in his mental gun.
He shot wide, exploded
the sun. Can you
get drawn under
the cheap stench
of day?
I heard
the moment as it fell —
time like velvety graywater
or purple tonic.
I wouldn’t be
the assassin,
the woman
waved aside.
I began without him. Fear
wildly close
as soon as I was
gone.
No one
to understand
the mysterious account
of me
but me.
Source: King, Stephen, The Plant, Philtrum Press, p. 52
"Belatedly, The Refusal" is part of a series that began as part of The Poeming, a challenge launched in 2017 in which over 50 poets were assigned one of Stephen King’s books and tasked with writing 31 found poems pulled from its pages. I was assigned The Plant, which I’ve continued working with since then. My process involves printing out the page and then skimming it, using a colored pen to underline, connect, circle, and scratch out words. The page looks more and more chaotic as I work, incomprehensible to anyone else — and sometimes not even myself. The full shape of the poem emerges when I translate it from the scribbled over page into a document, still fragmented and full of holes. I love the surprise of that moment, followed by the hunt for words needed to fill in the gaps. I love how found poetry allows me to explore a text and see what alternative stories it can tell.