Courtney LeBlanc is the author of Beautiful & Full of Monsters (forthcoming from Vegetarian Alcoholic Press), chapbooks All in the Family (Bottlecap Press) and The Violence Within (Flutter Press), and a Pushcart Prize nominee. She has her MBA from University of Baltimore and her MFA from Queens University of Charlotte. She loves nail polish, wine, and tattoos.
The wood and glass case in the corner
of the family room, the key conspicuously
on top of it: I grew up around guns. The gun
rack in the rear window of the truck;
occasionally, a barrel down, butt up between
the front seat of the old farm truck, the one
we never drove off our dirt roads. I remember
my father aiming at the coyote that stalked
our fields, my fingers pressed into my ears
to muffle the crack of the shot, how I still
heard it and the animal’s near-simultaneous
yelp as the hot metal bit into its flesh. The vast
lands of our fields echoed the vast lands
of our state — how empty those roads were
as I drove my friend 8 hours to the state’s only
clinic. I held her hand when we walked up, my eyes
on the trucks that lined the street, the gun racks filled
with the 2nd amendment that had no desire to protect us.
I grew up on a 1,400 acre farm in North Dakota, our closest neighbor was a mile away, creating a solitude during my childhood years. North Dakota has only one abortion clinic and given the size of the state, this creates an extreme barrier to women seeking medical assistance.