Maya Jewell Zeller is the author of the interdisciplinary collaboration (with visual artist Carrie DeBacker) Alchemy For Cells & Other Beasts (Entre Rios Books, 2017), the chapbook Yesterday, the Bees (Floating Bridge Press, 2015), and the poetry collection Rust Fish (Lost Horse Press, 2011). Other manuscripts have been finalists with the National Poetry Series, Waywiser Press, New Issues, and elsewhere. Recipient of a Promise Award from the Sustainable Arts Foundation as well as a Residency in the H.J. Andrews Experimental Forest, Maya teaches for Central Washington University and edits poetry for Scablands Books.






Maya Jewell Zeller

Letter to Tori in December





Sometimes, in winter, we pretend we live in New England, or Narnia, a place aglow with lamp posts and nostalgia or a novel where we get what we want and don’t have to do chores, or remember people who hurt us or broke our hearts. But here we are in Spokane, and I’m planning to stay home until mid-January, make no excuses. Is it as simple as taking down the Christmas lights will be in three weeks? I have spent my life longing, spilling with desire. I have always written letters to boys. But Tori, you’re the one, no shits to give, knowing they’re all zeros. Once I sought help from a professional, but all I needed was a piglet, a gun, and a rocking chair. Some mud. My daughter takes my hand and says Mom, sometimes a person is a moron for not loving you. Let’s make some cookies and frost them. It’s nice I don’t have school. I’m pretty tired of looking at people’s faces, too.




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