Morgan Blalock graduated from Hollins University with degrees in creative writing and classical philology. Currently, she is in the process of applying to MFA programs while waiting tables. You can find her poetry and fiction in CutBank, New Plains Review, Terror House, Appalachian Heritage, and many more.
Morgan Blalock
Motherhood: Ceramic Plates, Unwashed
you are watching the driveway blank itself
repeatedly watching the driveway close its teeth
over what you thought you could control;
it’s all instant coffee now since mom took the filters
it’s a lot of the neighbors’ kids coming over
saying their own mothers made them check
you’d not offed yourself like your daddy
which was sad one of them said humble
to you on the trailer steps after you woke up
from a dream of standing over the sink bleeding
out the gums jamming floss-sticks
into the tender places; someone at the one-stop
says mom rode by tuesday in his bronco —
didn’t come in — and doesn’t she think
she’s a piece of work with that new man;
someone says she left you for good this time
doesn’t need your mistakes like bug-eaten
cabbage leaves holing her up inside and out
your bleeding from the mouth like she’s
really hurt you this time, but you will tell them
how when her own mother died she watched
truTV all day, remote between her legs, got
high off the dead woman’s morphine —
that you watched her slip away from you
like the noodles she used to throw at the wall
(done yet? she’d say done yet?) then twirl
spaghetti around her fingers instead of a fork
both of you laughing so hard it hurt — but now,
feet up on the futon you used to share
you are praying to somebody’s god-man
the drain’s open maw will return her to you
by the time you run out of dawn for all her dishes
"Motherhood: Ceramic Plates, Unwashed" was first written several years ago and has since had a few reiterations, different forms, and sound arrangement — but always with the same images. Once I came up with the stronger images in this piece (bleeding gums, the spaghetti noodles hanging, the neighbors’ children on the trailer porch), I spent months placing them into a story that is edged with loss but filled with small glimpses of past joy and hope. I think this piece is nice summation of a complicated matriarch/daughter relationship, and the sharpness behind the way women of a family treat each other, the way a male character can step (silently, in this piece) in the middle.
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