Stephen Furlong is a poet living outside Kansas City, Missouri. He currently is an adjunct instructor at Metropolitan Community College-Longview. His poems have appeared or are forthcoming from Flypaper Lit, Louisiana Literature, and Pine Hills Review, among others. Additionally, he currently serves as a staff reviewer for the journal Five:2:One and works specifically for the subset LitStyle.



Previously in Glass: A Journal of Poetry: Nostalgia


Stephen Furlong

Most Days I Long to be An Ampersand


— for Charlie Reutemann — after a line from Devin Kelly and most days, I’m okay with living, it isn’t always but sometimes. I have seen light dance in rooms I believed I did not belong. My childhood was spent in a room I did not create — the foundation consisted of wooden beams, paint, and a matter of life is death. My friend Devin says death is most our lives. I believe him. Most days I long to be an ampersand because language is fallible. But to be a symbol, the image of continuance, is enough. With you, I am a room full of pictures framed by memory and I want to capture you here Because at the end of this, I want to know There’s me but there’s also you.


The poem is dedicated to my best friend Charlie who entered my life the summer before seventh grade at a summer enrichment program that was designed to help students get acclimated to the work expected at the school I was transferring to beginning in the fall. We grew to be best friends a couple years later and this year will be thirteen years strong. Speaking to the poem directly, I am often fearful of being alone, but I know with people like Charlie, I'm not alone. It's pretty much a love poem for my best friend. And, Devin Kelly is a poet whom I deeply admire, who also appears a friend in the poem and in my life. Both in the concept of "death is most our lives" and the poetic spacing I employ are nods to him. And, with a nod to Amorak Huey, I hope it's about those things.



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