August 3, 2016
Pulsamos
LGBTQ Poets Respond to the Pulse Nightclub Shooting
Mariama J. Lockington
June 12, 2016
— for V, my home base
we will not die today, no, we will wake up
in Michigan, eat biscuits with eggs
while our barefeet kiss under the table
we will clink our glasses filled with OJ
& iron supplements, toast to one year
we will not put on pants or bras, we will pile
onto the couch to watch the news
heat up the hot water bottle
& alternate placing it over our uteri
because it is shark week & our cycles
don't give a fuck about wedding anniversaries
or sunday morning massacres
you know what would suck right now?
you say to me & without skipping a beat
i say: if we were both pregnant
& we laugh & rub our dog's belly until he growls
with pleasure & bites our hands softly
because this is what packs do
care for each other even when
the bleeding will not stop
when it aches to be alive & queer & brown
we will not die today
we will make it off the couch
& out to the river trail where we will walk
until our faces drip with moisture
& pausing under a tree i will say: i'm so sad in my bones
so you grab my hand & say: let's see how far we can go
& our feet take us all the way to the zoo
where we squat to rest, to drink water
& listen to our remarkable breaths
we will not die today
we will make it home, take cold showers
lie under the ceiling fan until we fall asleep
our bodies side-by-side on the bed
two browning avocado halves in the afternoon light
you're the only person i want to be here with
both of us will speak out of our heavy dreams
& we will wake up, again, put on nice clothes
drive across town to eat mussels drenched in butter
we will not die today, no
we will tear into our steaks & with each bite
we will remember all of the light we've lost
we will drink our whiskey & promise
to stay woke, to hurt ourselves less
the night will open her fist full of stars to us
as if to say: here, take what you need & hold it
& the car ride home will be full with stillness
save our thundering, electric hearts
Mariama J. Lockington is a writer, educator, and transracial adoptee who calls many places home. She currently works as a grants coordinator and lives in Lansing, Michigan with her wife and their dapple-haired dachshund, Henry. She is the founder of the womanist project the
Black Unicorn Book Club and is published in a number of journals including
Prelude Magazine, Washington Square Review: Issue 36, Read America (s) Anthology, and
Bozalta Journal. You can find more of her work
here.
Glass: A Journal of Poetry is published weekly by Glass Poetry Press.
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