August 3, 2016
Pulsamos
LGBTQ Poets Respond to the Pulse Nightclub Shooting
Allison Paster-Torres
My Forty-Nine
I'm still waiting
for the news to sink in.
I try to get to
It could have been me
because it could have
easily, because
I'm queer and I'm Latinx
and so I force my thoughts
to linger
because by now
I should be at It could have been
any number of my friends.
It could have been practically
all of my friends
all at once. We lived in dance clubs
since before we were old enough
to order a drink or give our mothers
an honest answer.
(Where were you last night?
You smell like cigarettes.)
But I can't find my way there
past the numbness of again.
Allison Paster-Torres was raised by a pack of wild libraries. She knows how to spell at least ten words in the English language, and can easily be talked into doing almost anything if you tell her it will be an adventure, even if this is obviously a lie. Should you feel so inclined, you may find her at
Facebook.com/WriterAllisonPT or
Twitter.com/Allison_PT.
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