Ruth Williams is the author of Flatlands (Black Lawrence Press, 2018), Conveyance (Dancing Girl Press, 2012), and Nursewifery (Jacar Press, Forthcoming 2020). Currently, she is an Associate Professor of English at William Jewell College and an Editor for Bear Review.
Poets Resist
Edited by Logan February
July 18, 2019
Ruth Williams
Childless
I couldn't bring myself to listen
to the small voices of children
taken from parents because I feared
the pin prick of their pain translated
across speakers into my ears, I feared
the inner softness in me welling uselessly
in its pink, my inner without
a child, welling in want
for a child, not taken from me,
but given. In this way,
turning away from their pain
was my want expressed.
The body does not know
its own borders. No, it wants and wants
with no thought of trespass.
I am sick of this softness,
the way fear is used to irradiate my love
for children, taken from parents,
myself, a childless woman,
welling with want
for a child, wanting to be
a child again, naïve to horror,
with my parents in my arms,
like these children,
how tender my pink caring, then,
how fertile and potent
this welling, crossing between us,
could become.
Poets Resist is published by Glass Poetry Press.
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