JinJin Xu is a writer from Shanghai. She is never quite sure what genre she is working in: her short docs have shown in Berlin and Hanoi, and her prose and poems can be found in The Margins, The Common, Millennium Film Journal, Nasty Women Poets, and Women’s Studies Quarterly. She spent the past year traveling across four continents on a Thomas J. Watson Fellowship writing collaboratively with migrant and refugee mothers. She is currently an MFA candidate in Poetry at NYU, where she received the Lillian Vernon Fellowship and teaches hybrid writing workshops.
October arrives & you are back again
no notice no fanfare I look down
ripples your name.
Blood rises when winds change faces. Waking
to sirens across the sea where
are you today- today?When winds change
come home —
I touch my ear it smells of blood.
Waking to an ancient terror of land.
Bedframe shifting. Hushed lashes
dilate your face
changing a thousand years late
Liang & Zhu circling
eternity with out
cause metallic wings whip
lashing
Come — today
- today when winds change remember
there’s language between us & no
thing left to say
remember how the river
of forgetfulness eighteen courts beneath
hell whips for a thousand years
until you tenderly misspeak my name
how beneath another land
Paolo & Francesca still entangle
whispering twin souls
separated by a single
bed sheet — When winds change
ask me for a love song
I wake dotting bullets
a jar of lovely things
Come —
I can’t quite recall now
but we loved once
remember? Five thousand years
up five thousand down violet vinegar mouths
downing two truths burning for nothing
brighter. Here my love
one last song
before you cross the sea
& I forget my way home
when winds change faces
Come —
I am singing in that bathtub
you loved paired wings scissor my chest
songs from a forgotten after
pillows soft with
out bodies single bed sheet concealing
your absence. Please M
we loved once
remember? my name in the next life
rising from windsfaces reborn inside
another hear me
hear you sing —